a whole lot of fucked up things happened lately, and so today, despite the hilarious dramatic couple fighting scene i witnessed while having my lunch at subway alone, failed to lighten up everything after that.
i messed up my part time job, the cashiering part, and it depressed me. No biggie, but depressing enough.
and then, i am finally losing more than 5/6 of my patience.
my tolerance and patience and whatever shit that make me too dumb a fool for being too softhearted or too leniant is finally stepping on my nerves. I hate it that i feel disappointed, and most of all, i hate it that i seemed to have been treated as a fool, or rather, an easy fool to be fooled. Just because i was waiting for you to initiate, and just because i thought though we do not know each other well, at least we have seen each other around, and you had once been very supportive as a reader for a period of time. Just because.
It took me perhaps two weeks and hell lot of my patience to finally get that tiny bit of truth from you, knowing that there is indeed something going on in the dark, which you have claimed for two, or was it more?goddamn weeks that you're innocent.
please, stop testing my patience. you have no longer the choice and rights to CHOOSE what outcome you want IF this is indeed plagiarising. If this is NOT, an explanation will be desired a long, long time ago. And of course, if this is NOT, an explanation and proof are definitely NOT a problem to you.
like i am mentioned in my pm, hope to see from you soon. I know you're in the middle of some busy life, and here, is one last chance i am giving you. Do NOT say i am cruel, just tell me WHEN you are no longer busy. And then, we shall see from there. And. It's not that i am trying to push you to the edge, off the cliff. It is just that I simply fail to sense the honesty in you when i have given you my trust right in the beginning. In which you have betrayed it.
best of luck, anyways.