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May 1st, 2008 (12:29 am)

a whole lot of fucked up things happened lately, and so today, despite the hilarious dramatic couple fighting scene i witnessed while having my lunch at subway alone, failed to lighten up everything after that.

i messed up my part time job, the cashiering part, and it depressed me. No biggie, but depressing enough. 

and then, i am finally losing more than 5/6 of my patience. 

my tolerance and patience and whatever shit that make me too dumb a fool for being too softhearted or too leniant is finally stepping on my nerves. I hate it that i feel disappointed, and most of all, i hate it that i seemed to have been treated as a fool, or rather, an easy fool to be fooled.  Just because i was waiting for you to initiate, and just because i thought though we do not know each other well, at least we have seen each other around, and you had once been very supportive as a reader for a period of time. Just because.

It took me perhaps two weeks and hell lot of my patience to finally get that tiny bit of truth from you, knowing that there is indeed something going on in the dark, which you have claimed for two, or was it more?goddamn weeks that you're innocent. 

please, stop testing my patience. you have no longer the choice and rights to CHOOSE what outcome you want IF this is indeed plagiarising. If this is NOT, an explanation will be desired a long, long time ago. And of course, if this is NOT, an explanation and proof are definitely NOT a problem to you.

like i am mentioned in my pm, hope to see from you soon. I know you're in the middle of some busy life, and here, is one last chance i am giving you. Do NOT say i am cruel, just tell me WHEN you are no longer busy. And then, we shall see from there. And. It's not that i am trying to push you to the edge, off the cliff. It is just that I simply fail to sense the honesty in you when i have given you my trust right in the beginning. In which you have betrayed it.

best of luck, anyways.

Comments

Posted by: Vanny♥ (vanny92)
Posted at: April 30th, 2008 04:53 pm (UTC)

-huggles-

Don't worry about it! <3

I'm sorry if I caused all your problems. >,< I should have never spoken to you about it in the first place!

Now I feel bad for giving you trouble like that. D:

♥ but you still love me, right?

Posted by: this is a bitch. (luvkangta)
Posted at: April 30th, 2008 04:55 pm (UTC)
Icecreammy Jae <3

no, it's not your fault to even start with, hon! nothing like this will ever happen if this thing does not DRAG.

and of course i still love you♥

...and. i really appreciate this comment, ninjae. i know this is courage from you, posting this. *hugs*

Posted by: Vanny♥ (vanny92)
Posted at: April 30th, 2008 05:13 pm (UTC)

IDK. It's like, I knew that you were already so troubled with life and everything, and yet I still had to tell you about it to make your life more miserable.

I feel really bad about it. :\

I really want to see a happy ninyun♥.

-huggles-

Posted by: [m8] (mickey8)
Posted at: April 30th, 2008 05:16 pm (UTC)

*coo*

whatever it is...don't stress too much. lets talk soon! ^^

Posted by: JING (jing_16)
Posted at: May 1st, 2008 04:23 am (UTC)
hosu-paris

omo,i dont understand a thing.
but hey,i seldom see you update ur lj =)
whatever it is, cheer up.
yunjae love each other and they love you!

Posted by: ♥Chi♥ (melodeon_effect)
Posted at: May 1st, 2008 12:48 pm (UTC)

........she still hasn't said anything?

Posted by: Owdray (owdray)
Posted at: May 9th, 2008 03:54 pm (UTC)

Hey darling! *HUGGLES*

Don't worry. We all have a limit to our patience. We gotta blow sometimes.

SMILE! =)

Posted by: hamishim (hamishim)
Posted at: May 10th, 2008 03:30 am (UTC)
Hey, I can't log in in INCOM AGAINNNN~~

Don't understand why, seriously, I want to stop by to pm you that out translated group decided to use your fic to be our 1st project. Thank you for your permission again. When the 1st chap is posted, I'll inform you ^^ And then I'll pm you at least 5comments about your fic. Of course, if there are any more comments, we'll try our best to translate it for you. ^^ At least 2 comments for each chapter, ok? Thanks again. Have a nice day. Well, i think that I'll keep in touch with you in LJ, since my account in In-com keeps being deleted >.<

Posted by: MissyEs .:. 大小姐 (outlandishhh)
Posted at: May 10th, 2008 03:12 pm (UTC)
Re: Hey, I can't log in in INCOM AGAINNNN~~

ah..no problem. but may i have your email please? Because i hope that your team wil translate from the .doc file i have instead. =x and it can make everything easier =)

Posted by: hamishim (hamishim)
Posted at: May 11th, 2008 03:51 am (UTC)
Re: Hey, I can&#39;t log in in INCOM AGAINNNN~~

Whoa, that's really great. the doc. file I have right now is copied from your LJ. Well, my email is ryonad122004@yahoo.com ^^Haha, I also have a msn account, but seems like it doesn't work ^^

Posted by: hamishim (hamishim)
Posted at: May 10th, 2008 03:50 am (UTC)
P/S

Ah, anyway, if you see this comment, can you, in anyway, let me know that you read it? ^^ see, the point here is i cant login in in-com anymore, and i dont really know how to use LJ ^^ so...

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